Snow.

And it was cold.. very cold.

Today was an ok day. Go Obama, and such. I just wish life was more interesting. I hate how people say that high school will be the most eventful and exciting times of your life, but they aren't. I don't think so at least.

Surprisingly, I'm really excited for prom this year. I mean, I won't have a date except for my best friend, and that suffices really. We will look amazing, have the best group, and have an awesome time.

I just wish I could get the courage to ask dude to the prom, but seeing as how things are so awkward, I really am not up for messing up anything that could happen in the future. Is this stupid? I think I'm holding on for way too long. Way way way too long.

Really.

I can't stop thinking about him. I was asked the other night if I was still in love with him, and I said that I wasn't sure if I knew what love is yet. We never met in person, but we clicked like a lightbulb. I can't describe the connection we had, but then it drifted away, and I miss it.

He tells me he misses it, but for some reason, I want more. I want him to show me that he misses it.

We had planned to meet up one day, but he bailed. Is it really worth trying again to see him? Maybe?

I don't know. The awnser is probably No, and I know that, but I just can't get past this future vision I have of meeting him and being with him for the rest of my life.

How naiive of me to say that...

C.J.